Candy Corn and Peanuts

Happy Halloween!

For some reason this year I'm really excited about today. I have no earthly idea why, I just really enjoyed the Halloween season this year. Probably because last year I was stuck with Jordan Milam in Dallas for the entire holiday weekend thus missing every get-together there was. I'm making up for two years of Halloween today.

I enjoyed Juston's party for the short time I was there. Some of the guys actually made pretty good looking women, it was crazy. I still don't know who was taking pictures with me, all I know is they would say "Flapper, get in the picture!" They all had masks on and didn't say my name, so I'm assuming I don't know them. It was strange seeing the diverse group of people that were friends with Juston now when just two years ago it was our friend of groups that went to all the parties together. I've got awesome pictures of us at V-Man's getting a little razzed before The Rocky Horror Picture Show, and even more of us rocking out in the Lighthouse parking lot.

Things are just different now. That's all there is to say. That and I really, really enjoy Halloween.

A Change of Weather

A great apathy has taken over me. I have no desire to do anyhitng at all today. How odd to have this day just after my abitious description of yesterday. Oh dear...

Cheifs and Indians

After my previous post I realized that I feel like I'm always a step behind people. I push and push myself mainly because I think I'm trying to play catch-up. I doubt I can get my addicive work ethic to change. I'll always be the one volunteering to do something, thinking that I'm not pulling my weight, but then taking too much on and stressing myself out completely. A prime example of this is my work as an RA. I took on being chairperson of this committee that was responsible for a huge department function and I stressed for two weeks about it. Yeah, I got it done and it went smoothly, but I worry about the impact it had on my life in other areas. I hardly see my friends anymore because of my classes, but adding this there was no time for even a casual "hello." When it was over I suppose the end justified the means because I got complements from the directors and the other RA's saw that I'm reliable. Plus, the feeling when you accomplish something you have worked very hard on is pretty nice. Though, I've got to draw the line somewhere. I have to be the person who sits back as is told what to do. Ugh, that is difficult for me. It is not in my genetic make-up to sit back and cruise. I know that being a good leader is knowing when to lead and when to follow, but that is SO hard to do when really the leader is incompetent. How "Stuwey" of me. I suppose I'll work on it.

Knots and Bells

I guess I've hit that time in life where I get to see people actually starting their lives. My older friends are graduating from college and starting their careers and my same age friends are getting engaged, married, and even having kids. At the Baptist Student Ministry, there are about 4 girls in my class (as in Class of 2008) who aren't engaged, myself included. It's pretty odd to observe. It seems like every Sunday there's a new couple being anounced by Lakan and they're all people I know pretty well. They aren't the older ones anymore, they're my people. Don't get the wrong idea, I'm by no means jealous of these people. My time will come eventually and I'll be pleased when it does, but it is odd seeing all the people around me starting something so huge.