Your head pops off your pillow and you think today is just an ordinary day, but no. Not for me. Not for all the reflection I have been doing lately. The self examination and prayer that has gone on recently is turning my mind into an entirely new form. At peace with myself is what I have longed for for months now, but getting there is the difficult part.
Then there is today. There is a sadness with what today is, but naturally there would be. It's okay to be sad. I know I can't change the past and that's how it should be, but I know now how to change what I think about it. I am a new woman, a more mature and more understanding, compassionate woman who is much more careful with her words and actions and more reflective as well. I don't know what the future is going to bring, but if I have ever learned anything from planning it's that plans change and adaptation is necessary. I am stronger and much more understanding now. I will cherish this sadness though, because it is something to be sad about and tomorrow I will go to work and school and embrace it all with a pensive demeanor.
