I was thinking today about how certain sounds, smells, tastes, etc. trigger stuff in your memory that send you right back to where you first encountered them. The big thing for me is music. I never used to listen to music this much, EVER! I have mainly Josh and Daniel to thank for this. To them I am forever indebted. Here goes it:

"Into the Darkness" Juliana Theory - Driving around some summer night before we were dating. I pretty much forced him to introduce me to Juilana Theory.

Mae "Summertime" - Well, duh.

All American Rejects "Swing Swing" - Summer 2002 driving to Canada.

Ben Folds "Wandering" - Sometime either September or October at night missing him terribly.

Norah Jones "Come Away With Me" - Sitting in the hot tub in New Mexico this summer wishing I was back in San Angelo.

Oasis "Wonderwall" - Playing this song on my guitar with Chris Weaver.

Postal Service "Such Great Heights" - Singing and acting it out with Juston in Magnolia in probably early September.

Postal Sevice "Sleeping In" - Driving to Austin on our first trip.

Juliana Theory "You Always Say Goodnight" - Driving around Ruidoso, NM still wishing I was home.

Stephen Speaks "Out of my League" - Sitting in the St. Louis airport, nervous as can be.

Postal Srvice "District Sleeps Alone" - Watching Josh paint his senior square in the youth room on his last day in San Angelo.

Sumblime "What I Got" - Eight of us crammed into Matt's Caddilac screming this song at the top of our lungs after church every Sunday.

Opium "Heaven is a Half Pipe" - Matt always played this for me when he drove me from Band practice to Play rehearsal sophomore year.

The Shins "Chutes too Narrow" - One night after a movie........."Whoa, is that The Shins? They're palying The Shins!"....................

Phantom Planet "California" - The song I wish were true for me..... 'California, here we come'


There are many others that remind me of things, just these stand out in my mind. A smile comes to my face with all of these, even though they weren't all happy times. It's just really fun to think about.

Wouldn't it be nice
If I could melt myself like ice
Or outrun my skin
And just be pure wind

I had a really long post in here, but then I read an e-mail and decided to delete it.

So it appears that everything's okay.

It's times like these when I get really confused. I think people want one thing from me, but when I try to do that it just blows up in my face and gets more people involved that DON'T need to be. I'm really trying to help Ashlin in this situation with her, Thinh, Tyler, Ben, Jeremy, and Cody. I mean, finally I have time to help her but she doesn't seem like she really wants it. Also, in "helping" her I end up putting a friendship on the line that really means a lot to me. In doing this I end up putting other peoples friendships with people on the line and it just gets rediculous! This whole situation is out of control and very immature and I don't want to be a part of it anymore. I've tried to help, really I have but I'm staying out of it. Ashlin you are my best friend and will be forever, but honey I can't help. To add to this:


Dear Thinh,

I'm really, really sorry if what I've done was offensive.

Sincerely,
Elizabeth

The years are fast, but the days are long.

I wish people were open and honest, it would make things a lot easier. I'm not going to judge, I just want to know...