I don't even know what to write here anymore. I feel compromised. I'm trying to hide everything and not let perception be reality, but no one believes me.
I don't even feel safe in the one place I go to get away from the world, either. I fear going to my own church because of the current situation. Perception is reality. I hate human nature in that way. I believe everything happens for a reason... it's all in His timing. Why are humans so judgemental?
Three summers ago I started this blog full of hope and a fantasy. My passion as a 17 year-old has become less idealistic. I've grown. People grow. They leave behind what they need to to move on. Where would I be if I had not let my brother go? My Dad? Now Josh?
Renewal is refreshing. NEW is refreshing. Pursuits are refreshing. Sadness is inevitable, but love heals all wounds past, present, future.
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Just write. God knows it's all I can do. And don't hide things, please.
Reality is reality, though sometimes it takes sharing perceptions to make you realize that what you feel isn't what's really going on.
We're both going to find ourselves in uncomfortable positions now because of what's happened, but that means we're both expected now to call upon God for strength in those situations.
Oh, and sweetheart, that was four summers ago.
You know I'm available to talk whenever you need it.
Elizabeth, you are/were mistaken.
New is not refreshing... it's scary and dark and uncomfortable. You haven't left either of those men go, but you need to. I'm not lying to myself anymore.
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