At the beginning of the year I made a list of 100 things to accomplish in 2006. My progress has been better than I thought. Some things I accomplished this year so far I forgot were on the list! Here is my progress in the 3/4 of a year mark.
I'll have to analyze and explain these later.
1. SXSW for the 3rd time
2. write a letter to our Congressman or Representative
3. buy a really cool pair of shoes
4. watch every episode of Grey's Anatomy
9. floss
10. repair bike and save gas
11. clean my car inside and out
19. buy antique jewelery
20. play a lot of animal crossing
24. complete all essays for Ellery's class on time
26. play tennis again
29. catch a bouquet at a wedding
31. go to church, but think for myself
35. keep practicing my flute
36. practice my ballet
37. don't over-involve myself
38. make some great coffee
39. don't get drunk, just razzed
40. don't talk with mouth full
43. be nice to spoiled rotten sister
44. make up kick ass flag routines for Grape Creek HS
47. bake cakes and cookies for friends
49. buy a new Victoria's Secret bra
50. go to an art show51. go to the symphony
52. live with Josh for the summer
53. be grateful to my dad
54. thank God for life every day
55. plant some trees, kill some misquites
64. be in my best friends' wedding
65. be happy for said friend getting married
66. pop someones Amelie cherry
68. visit sister in San Antonio
69. don't have sex
71. discover and love a new band all on my own
72. stand up strait
76. be supportive of Matty
77. buy a cool new poster
78. don't eat out very much (or at least don't PAY for it)
80. be more positive about school
81. figure out what job i can see myself doing the rest of my life
82. be there for someone
84. watch all of the olympics i can
85. keep dorm room clean
89. dig deeper into my italian heritage
90. read a graphic novel
91. eat my fruits and veggies
93. go to the library, it's there for a reason
94. order something besides a cinnamon latte at starbucks
I think I've done a pretty good job. Yay me!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Life after...
While walking to class the other day I caught myself doing Thinh's favotite activity: reminicing. Not really thinking about fun things I used to do with my friends, but more of how I felt a few years ago.
While I was in the middle of my senior year in high school I hit this point where I felt pretty unsure about things. With the mxture of my parents incessant pecking and my lack of confidence in the future, I slipped into a rather depressive state. A lot of this was in sync with the sudden death of one of our fellow classmates. I remember sitting in the ASU computer lab thinking to myself "If I were to die, would it really matter to people?" My mother would say I was lazy, selfish, and self centered who never saw the opportunity in Sitel. Honestly, I think I was a little cold in high school, or rather my senior year. I was so fed up with the high school scene that all I did was go to class, do my work, and take off. I would say I was pretty bitchy andI hate to admit that.
Boy, things have changed a lot. Moving into the dorms is one of the best things to ever happen to me. It changed my life completely. The interaction I have with so meany people I've really learned to cherish. My job is to make friends with th people on my floor and be there for them if they ever need anything. My compassion really revealed itself in this vocation. I'm always afraid I'm going to give bad advice or not get as involved as I should or something. I would never have seen myself in this position 3 years ago. Of course, I always wanted to be an RA but due to technicalities I never thought it possible. God opened every window, door, and gate to get me where I am today so I hardly faced a fork in the road.
So now I'm here hoping I doing what I think I'm supposed to be doing by Him and making a million mistakes in the process. It feels right for now. I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life (sans Summer 2003) and I have a confidence that keeps me truckin'. Essentially, I don't think people will look at me now and think "bitchy" and maybe my mom won't see "selfish" anymore. IF I were to die I now I feel I would be remebered well. A 20 year old probably shouldn't have such morbid thoughts but the Lord will take me when He wishes. So I think more importantly my job for now is to be really appreciative of everything that has happened to me give credit where credit is due. My job is not to rush through life being bitchy. How deep.
While I was in the middle of my senior year in high school I hit this point where I felt pretty unsure about things. With the mxture of my parents incessant pecking and my lack of confidence in the future, I slipped into a rather depressive state. A lot of this was in sync with the sudden death of one of our fellow classmates. I remember sitting in the ASU computer lab thinking to myself "If I were to die, would it really matter to people?" My mother would say I was lazy, selfish, and self centered who never saw the opportunity in Sitel. Honestly, I think I was a little cold in high school, or rather my senior year. I was so fed up with the high school scene that all I did was go to class, do my work, and take off. I would say I was pretty bitchy andI hate to admit that.
Boy, things have changed a lot. Moving into the dorms is one of the best things to ever happen to me. It changed my life completely. The interaction I have with so meany people I've really learned to cherish. My job is to make friends with th people on my floor and be there for them if they ever need anything. My compassion really revealed itself in this vocation. I'm always afraid I'm going to give bad advice or not get as involved as I should or something. I would never have seen myself in this position 3 years ago. Of course, I always wanted to be an RA but due to technicalities I never thought it possible. God opened every window, door, and gate to get me where I am today so I hardly faced a fork in the road.
So now I'm here hoping I doing what I think I'm supposed to be doing by Him and making a million mistakes in the process. It feels right for now. I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life (sans Summer 2003) and I have a confidence that keeps me truckin'. Essentially, I don't think people will look at me now and think "bitchy" and maybe my mom won't see "selfish" anymore. IF I were to die I now I feel I would be remebered well. A 20 year old probably shouldn't have such morbid thoughts but the Lord will take me when He wishes. So I think more importantly my job for now is to be really appreciative of everything that has happened to me give credit where credit is due. My job is not to rush through life being bitchy. How deep.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Something Called School Started
First day of class for the Fall 2006 semester. It's rainy, cold, dark, and absolutely perfect. This is exactly the weather I'd love to wake up to almost every morning. I still hope Josh will get a job somwhere on the northwest coast, Seattle or Portland, so it will be like this all the time.
Argument and Debate is going to be time consuming, but beneficial because it will teach me how to argue. I need all the help I can get in that department. Critical thinking and logic is something I need to sharpen up on. Most of the students in that class are Comm majors and I am familiar with them. Comm people I can deal with, they're more on the side I would consider "normal" socially.
As for my English classes, not so normal. Literary Analysis shouldn't be too difficult, but the class is full of English majors whom I consider quite strange and almost annoying. In high school, all my English classes were full of "unique" people, but no one too strange. It seems at the college level they are just plain wacky. Most who I come in contact with severely lack social skills and don't make up for it in any other area. As you get into higher level English classes, they get a little confidence and turn into pretentious socially inept stiffs. A prime example is my Film Analysis class. I can pick out the pretentious ones, the ones who don't know a wide angle from a triangle, and the silent but deadly on paper ones. Lorne and I fall into the latter category. Ugh, English majors are almost as bad as Comp Sci majors. I don't like the people in there yet... but it's only the first day.
Argument and Debate is going to be time consuming, but beneficial because it will teach me how to argue. I need all the help I can get in that department. Critical thinking and logic is something I need to sharpen up on. Most of the students in that class are Comm majors and I am familiar with them. Comm people I can deal with, they're more on the side I would consider "normal" socially.
As for my English classes, not so normal. Literary Analysis shouldn't be too difficult, but the class is full of English majors whom I consider quite strange and almost annoying. In high school, all my English classes were full of "unique" people, but no one too strange. It seems at the college level they are just plain wacky. Most who I come in contact with severely lack social skills and don't make up for it in any other area. As you get into higher level English classes, they get a little confidence and turn into pretentious socially inept stiffs. A prime example is my Film Analysis class. I can pick out the pretentious ones, the ones who don't know a wide angle from a triangle, and the silent but deadly on paper ones. Lorne and I fall into the latter category. Ugh, English majors are almost as bad as Comp Sci majors. I don't like the people in there yet... but it's only the first day.
July, July, July
It Never Seemed So Strange
For some reason this year has been a year of forgetting to post. Unfortunately, I skipped February and now July. I've had this thing for a little over 3 years and it has evolved immensly. style has changed in my posts but I still refuse to get a new blog. I'll just continue to revamp and recreate it. When I'm 40 I'll laugh at my all the ridiculous things I said about Josh when we first started dating. I laugh now at all that mushy gushy crap. Ew.
For some reason this year has been a year of forgetting to post. Unfortunately, I skipped February and now July. I've had this thing for a little over 3 years and it has evolved immensly. style has changed in my posts but I still refuse to get a new blog. I'll just continue to revamp and recreate it. When I'm 40 I'll laugh at my all the ridiculous things I said about Josh when we first started dating. I laugh now at all that mushy gushy crap. Ew.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Home is... where?
I've been in West Lafayette, Indiana for three weeks with Josh. Today I go home, though San Angelo doesn't really feel like home. This is probably supported by the fact that I don't really have a house there. Since I moved into the dorms, I no longer had a permanent address according to my mother. All my things are scattered around San Angelo in boxes at various friend's houses and I won't get it all together until I move back in the dorms for the 06-07 school year. It's really strange to go back to my old room and see my mother's and sister's things all over the place. It doesn't help things when my mother and sister continuously correct me when I accidentaly say "my" room. My mistake, I'm just sleeping there living out of a suitcase until I move back into the dorms. I guess you can understand why I'm going to be traveling away from there for most of the summer. I'm an RA, my job is to make a home away from home for my residents though ironically the dorms are my home.
If home is where the heart is, then where ever Josh may be is where I am home. Living with Josh is easy. Being with someone you love for most of the hours of the day is wonderful, and being with someone who can keep you entertained is even better.
Since I am a daddy's girl, being with my Dad is going to be pretty great too. Growing up very close to your father until you are 10, then not seeing the guy for years hurts pretty bad. Seeing him now that I'm older makes me long for those missing years, but I also know it was for the beat and mainly no one's fault but his. Nevertheless, I feel I am at home with my father so being in CA for a month can only do me good.
I'll make myself a home someday with the help of another and I'll be happy (not that I'm not right now, I just feel displaced). For now, home is with the people I care about and in D100's where I will not only make it a home away from home for the residents, but a home for myself.
If home is where the heart is, then where ever Josh may be is where I am home. Living with Josh is easy. Being with someone you love for most of the hours of the day is wonderful, and being with someone who can keep you entertained is even better.
Since I am a daddy's girl, being with my Dad is going to be pretty great too. Growing up very close to your father until you are 10, then not seeing the guy for years hurts pretty bad. Seeing him now that I'm older makes me long for those missing years, but I also know it was for the beat and mainly no one's fault but his. Nevertheless, I feel I am at home with my father so being in CA for a month can only do me good.
I'll make myself a home someday with the help of another and I'll be happy (not that I'm not right now, I just feel displaced). For now, home is with the people I care about and in D100's where I will not only make it a home away from home for the residents, but a home for myself.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
The Not So Cryptic Version of Me
I am now enjoying some time off in West Lafayette, Indiana with a guy I'm crazy about. Josh is someone I can sit in silence with and never feel uncomfortable about it. Love is simply feeling content in the mere presence of a person and we are at that point. I feel wonderful up here. Not only that I'm with Josh, but that I'm away from San Angelo because I hate the heat, wind, and severe lack of interesting things to do. At least here in West Lafayette I've got a library, school, bookstore, 10 coffee shops, and cafes all within walking distance of me. Glorious.
This is my first summer not at Camp Sol Mayer and it feels kind of wierd. I miss my sister and all my friends, but I think there's a time when you grow out of camp life. Plus, this was a time when Josh and I really needed to spend some time together where we weren't bothered by anybody, mainly family (his and mine). Not that we were always bothered, but private time is something Josh and I rarely ever have.
San Angelo, I don't miss you. By the end of the summer when I am back from San Francisco, I will loathe you even more.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
"So book her tickets,
And please her parents.
She is lovely,
And he is really smart."
Life was Leisure, Rainer Maria
And please her parents.
She is lovely,
And he is really smart."
Life was Leisure, Rainer Maria
I'm always falling in love with certain lyrics of songs that apply so perfectly to my life right now. I think that's the beauty of songs (that's not very deep.) Anyway, I recently aquired an album that absolutely rocks entited "Catastrophe" being the newest from Rainer Maria. The song "Life was Leisure" sings my anthem right now. It is an odd and simple four lines, but I love them.
My best friend got married. Wow. There's something about weddings that make my adrenaline rush. The flowers, the rings, the dresses, the tuxedos... Granted, Matt and Danielle's was a HUGE southern debutante wedding, but it was still a great experience. I'm not sure if I believe there is one person for everyone, a soulmate if you will, but I know that Matt and Danielle are perfect for eachother. They just fit perfect together and where he lacks in verbosity, she makes up in conversasion. Those balances are apparent all over they're relationship and it is neat to see. Weddings bring out my dreaming inner child because I've been planning my wedding since I was 6. Yet, it also brings out my "Always a bridesmaid, never a bride" complex. But then again, I'm only 20 and it's ridiculous to think about that right now. (The fear, not the dream.)
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
"I leave the party at 3am, alone thank God." Neko Case
I was forced on an unexpected trip 200 miles across Texas and it blew my mind.
Why does summer always have to be synonymous with confusion for me? It's like free time hits and I finally have a chance to think about personal life stuff that has accumulated in my mind over the school year. Yet, thinking implies really assessing the situation and figuring out what it is I really want. Well, not figuring it out (I know EXACTLY what I want) but knowing if it is really possible or am I just dreaming it up?
I was forced on an unexpected trip 200 miles across Texas and it blew my mind.
Why does summer always have to be synonymous with confusion for me? It's like free time hits and I finally have a chance to think about personal life stuff that has accumulated in my mind over the school year. Yet, thinking implies really assessing the situation and figuring out what it is I really want. Well, not figuring it out (I know EXACTLY what I want) but knowing if it is really possible or am I just dreaming it up?
Saturday, May 06, 2006
I can't sleep. I have so much to say but no time to say it. My mind is racing 100 miles a minute.
What comes to mind is Jupiter Sunrise's new song "Why'd I wait so long?" I wish they'd hurry and release their new stuff because it's awesome and that song would be really great to listen to right now. I'm depending on music to speak for me here, but the song isn't released yet. They only playesd it live for the first time last night at the concert (which rocked, by the way). Still, even if I had the lyrics it would be quite helpful. Bah!
What comes to mind is Jupiter Sunrise's new song "Why'd I wait so long?" I wish they'd hurry and release their new stuff because it's awesome and that song would be really great to listen to right now. I'm depending on music to speak for me here, but the song isn't released yet. They only playesd it live for the first time last night at the concert (which rocked, by the way). Still, even if I had the lyrics it would be quite helpful. Bah!
Thursday, May 04, 2006
My goodness, why does life suck so bad right now?
The fact is, I've come to the realization that a lot of things need to change. After Finals next week, I have no choice but to start being happy with my life. I've hit the point where I realize that people don't change and never will, so you have either be willing to adapt or not. I feel I've been bending too far though. You can only bend so far until you break. Over the years I've been bending and losing little pieces of me to where I'm not even Elizabeth anymore. It's horrible when even your friends call you out on it and you know they're right.
The two people who care for me the most have really been teaching em some things lately.
The fact is, I've come to the realization that a lot of things need to change. After Finals next week, I have no choice but to start being happy with my life. I've hit the point where I realize that people don't change and never will, so you have either be willing to adapt or not. I feel I've been bending too far though. You can only bend so far until you break. Over the years I've been bending and losing little pieces of me to where I'm not even Elizabeth anymore. It's horrible when even your friends call you out on it and you know they're right.
The two people who care for me the most have really been teaching em some things lately.
Monday, May 01, 2006
There have been a lot of future plans that I have changed within the past few weeks. I had a plan, but it depended on something I thought might happen but doesn't look so promising anymore. Man, I liked that plan... it was beautiful.
Oh well. So now I'm just looking for a way out. One road straight out of San Angelo. I'm going to apply for every internship or job I can find that corresponds with my department. I'll take anything: magazine, newspaper, televison, radio... anything! My ambition has been hybernating the past 2 years and it's about to break out into ludicrous speed. I've got a Band scholarship interview/try out coming up this week and I'm gonna get it because I'm miss positive attitude!
I've pretty much figured I'm no longer a part of anyone elses future so it's only me on my own. God, please help me to see what you've got planned for me!
For some reason my life has come completely full cirlce and I feel this same way again, just 2 years later. Amazing how history repeats itself.
Oh well. So now I'm just looking for a way out. One road straight out of San Angelo. I'm going to apply for every internship or job I can find that corresponds with my department. I'll take anything: magazine, newspaper, televison, radio... anything! My ambition has been hybernating the past 2 years and it's about to break out into ludicrous speed. I've got a Band scholarship interview/try out coming up this week and I'm gonna get it because I'm miss positive attitude!
I've pretty much figured I'm no longer a part of anyone elses future so it's only me on my own. God, please help me to see what you've got planned for me!
For some reason my life has come completely full cirlce and I feel this same way again, just 2 years later. Amazing how history repeats itself.
Monday, April 24, 2006
Last week I had a lot of triumphs and a couple low blows.
Triumphs. I won a scholarship from the Communication department at ASU and my sister, Krista,won a scholarship from her work. I got to travel out of town with Brandon and we hiked around Christoval for a few hours, which is something I've wanted to do for a long time.
Lo Blows. My step-grandmother passed away in her sleep on Easter Morning. My brother called Thursday informing us that he was getting a divorce. "She said she doesn't love me anymore and we were so different to begin with." That explanation terrifies me. I don't understand how one can "fall out" of love with someone, but the irreconsilable differences I do understand. What I am most worried about is losing my Nephew, Bryce. If she takes him to Canada, who knows when my sisters and I will get to see him.
Divorce is horrible. There was a post on postsecret that said "I knew when I married him, we would get divorced. And we did." For goodness sakes, if you have such severe reservations, DON'T TIE THE KNOT! Yet, what about the people with small reservations? The ones who want to get married, but don't really know if they'll be happy for the rest of their life with that person. I need to have a personal search and see what marriage really means to me because I'm beginning to believe marriage is just an expensive public show of short-lived dedication and God has nothing to do with it anymore. Coming to this realization is really strange for me because I've wanted to get married since I was 5 and I've desired a nuclear family since my parents split up... and I still don't believe sex before marriage is a good idea. Do I contradict myself? Maybe, but so be it. I'm pissed off at the marriage institution right now.
Triumphs. I won a scholarship from the Communication department at ASU and my sister, Krista,won a scholarship from her work. I got to travel out of town with Brandon and we hiked around Christoval for a few hours, which is something I've wanted to do for a long time.
Lo Blows. My step-grandmother passed away in her sleep on Easter Morning. My brother called Thursday informing us that he was getting a divorce. "She said she doesn't love me anymore and we were so different to begin with." That explanation terrifies me. I don't understand how one can "fall out" of love with someone, but the irreconsilable differences I do understand. What I am most worried about is losing my Nephew, Bryce. If she takes him to Canada, who knows when my sisters and I will get to see him.
Divorce is horrible. There was a post on postsecret that said "I knew when I married him, we would get divorced. And we did." For goodness sakes, if you have such severe reservations, DON'T TIE THE KNOT! Yet, what about the people with small reservations? The ones who want to get married, but don't really know if they'll be happy for the rest of their life with that person. I need to have a personal search and see what marriage really means to me because I'm beginning to believe marriage is just an expensive public show of short-lived dedication and God has nothing to do with it anymore. Coming to this realization is really strange for me because I've wanted to get married since I was 5 and I've desired a nuclear family since my parents split up... and I still don't believe sex before marriage is a good idea. Do I contradict myself? Maybe, but so be it. I'm pissed off at the marriage institution right now.
Friday, March 31, 2006
Here is an update on my year 1/4 over:
so far so good - done - not yet -FAILED
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1. SXSW for the 3rd time
2. write a letter to our Congressman or Representative
3. buy a really cool pair of shoes
4. watch every episode of Grey's Anatomy
5. give 10% of all earnings away to church or charity
6. file taxes by end of January
7. complete FAFSA by end of January
8. take vitamins and algae everyday
9. floss
10. repair bike and save gas
11. clean my car inside and out
12. lose 15 pounds by May
13. drink 3 gallons of water a week
14. spend only $10 on extra food every week (while in school)
15. only watch matinees, but watch at least 3 a month
16. read and complete a book a month
17. learn to play the piano well
18. write 2 letters a month to my Nonnie
19. buy antique jewelery
20. play a lot of animal crossing
21. get first in mario kart worldwide match
22. eat 0 deep fried foods
23. drink strawberry milk and eat a diego's burrito
24. complete all essays for Ellery's class on time
25. get a 4.0 this semester
26. play tennis again
27. say "I love you" to Josh everyday
28. keep up with friends' birthdays
29. catch a bouquet at a wedding
30. don't lie or stretch the truth
31. go to church, but think for myself
32. take a roadtrip to see Pablo
33. explore Christoval
34. skinny dip somewhere in San Angelo
35. keep practicing my flute
36. practice my ballet
37. don't over-involve myself
38. make some great coffee
39. don't get drunk, just razzed
40. don't talk with mouth full
41. eat at the Cactus Cafe' with someone cool
42. have a "photo-date" with someone
43. be nice to spoiled rotten sister
44. make up kick ass flag routines for Grape Creek HS
45. get a manicure and pedicure
46. get 7 hours of sleep every night
47. bake cakes and cookies for friends
48. stop disappearing from friends
49. buy a new Victoria's Secret bra
50. go to an art show
51. go to the symphony
52. live with Josh for the summer
53. be grateful to my dad
54. thank God for life every day
55. plant some trees, kill some misquites
56. go caroling at a nursing home
57. learn how to juggle
so far so good - done - not yet -
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1. SXSW for the 3rd time
2. write a letter to our Congressman or Representative
3. buy a really cool pair of shoes
4. watch every episode of Grey's Anatomy
5. give 10% of all earnings away to church or charity
6. file taxes by end of January
7. complete FAFSA by end of January
9. floss
10. repair bike and save gas
11. clean my car inside and out
12. lose 15 pounds by May
15. only watch matinees, but watch at least 3 a month
17. learn to play the piano well
19. buy antique jewelery
20. play a lot of animal crossing
21. get first in mario kart worldwide match
23. drink strawberry milk and eat a diego's burrito
25. get a 4.0 this semester
26. play tennis again
28. keep up with friends' birthdays
29. catch a bouquet at a wedding
31. go to church, but think for myself
32. take a roadtrip to see Pablo
33. explore Christoval
34. skinny dip somewhere in San Angelo
35. keep practicing my flute
36. practice my ballet
38. make some great coffee
39. don't get drunk, just razzed
40. don't talk with mouth full
41. eat at the Cactus Cafe' with someone cool
42. have a "photo-date" with someone
44. make up kick ass flag routines for Grape Creek HS
45. get a manicure and pedicure
47. bake cakes and cookies for friends
48. stop disappearing from friends
49. buy a new Victoria's Secret bra
50. go to an art show
51. go to the symphony
52. live with Josh for the summer
53. be grateful to my dad
54. thank God for life every day
55. plant some trees, kill some misquites
56. go caroling at a nursing home
57. learn how to juggle
58. never sleep past 11 on weekends
59. get better at frisbee
60. drink coffee with Thinh at IHOP
61. eat the healthy breakfast thing at IHOP with Ashlin
62. email Darby
63. attend The Way at Glenn Junior High
64. be in my best friends' wedding
65. be happy for said friend getting married
66. pop someones Amelie cherry
67. be an encouragement to the girls on my floor ( I hope?)
68. visit sister in San Antonio
69. don't have sex
70. look like Jackie O
71. discover and love a new band all on my own
72. stand up strait
73. dance with Juston
74. be supportive of Amber (even if she doesn't know it)
75. play with animals in an animal shelter
76. be supportive of Matty
77. buy a cool new poster
78. don't eat out very much (or at least don't PAY for it)
59. get better at frisbee
60. drink coffee with Thinh at IHOP
61. eat the healthy breakfast thing at IHOP with Ashlin
62. email Darby
63. attend The Way at Glenn Junior High
64. be in my best friends' wedding
65. be happy for said friend getting married
66. pop someones Amelie cherry
67. be an encouragement to the girls on my floor ( I hope?)
68. visit sister in San Antonio
69. don't have sex
70. look like Jackie O
71. discover and love a new band all on my own
72. stand up strait
73. dance with Juston
74. be supportive of Amber (even if she doesn't know it)
75. play with animals in an animal shelter
76. be supportive of Matty
77. buy a cool new poster
78. don't eat out very much (or at least don't PAY for it)
79. take a roadtrip with Ashlin
80. be more positive about school
81. figure out what job i can see myself doing the rest of my life
82. be there for someone
83. visit my 1/2 canadian nephew
84. watch all of the olympics i can
85. keep dorm room clean
86. go camping somewhere
87. have a lost in translation, life aquatic, broken flowers marathon
88. have a sofia coppola marathon
89. dig deeper into my italian heritage
90. read a graphic novel
91. eat my fruits and veggies
92. meet and elope Zach Braff (crossing fingers!)
93. go to the library, it's there for a reason
94. order something besides a cinnamon latte at starbucks
95. go to Austin more often
82. be there for someone
83. visit my 1/2 canadian nephew
84. watch all of the olympics i can
85. keep dorm room clean
86. go camping somewhere
87. have a lost in translation, life aquatic, broken flowers marathon
88. have a sofia coppola marathon
89. dig deeper into my italian heritage
90. read a graphic novel
91. eat my fruits and veggies
92. meet and elope Zach Braff (crossing fingers!)
93. go to the library, it's there for a reason
94. order something besides a cinnamon latte at starbucks
95. go to Austin more often
Monday, January 30, 2006
There are some things that I have strong convictions for avoiding and others that I am a little more lenient about. I guess this can all be separated into foods, apparel, and toiletries.
FOODS
For one, I am avoiding beef like the plague these days. Since last July, I can count on one hand the number of times that I've eaten beef (neither time was ground beef) When I was in SF over the summer, I was informed of some horror stories about mad cow and I'd rather not take my chances. My children will not either, no hamburgers. Unless of course it is organic, free grazing grass fed cattle. I am beef free.
Another one is white flower and white sugar. No grain or sugar occurs that white naturally. I know that when those two go through the processing plant, bleach is added. This is easily remedied becuase you can get ahold of natural cane sugar or sugar in the raw and wheat flour at all grocery stores now. No matter how awesome bleach is, I will avoid.
When it comes to organic food, I have mixed feelings. It comes down to taste and pesticides. Do you want to eat pesticides on all your vegitables and have you ever had an all organic salad? It just plain tastes better. I guess it's personal taste too, but man, carrots are more carroty and apples just burst. I'd take soy and flaxseed chips over Lays any damn day. Some of my favorite things (even if they're not organic) are only found in natural foodstores such as Kettle Chips, Blue Sky Sodas, Reed's Ginger Ale, Panda Licorice, Good Earth Tea, and Kasha. Man, you must have a deep pocket if you're going to eat primarily organic. Expensive: yes. Worth it: I can't say for sure, it's on a conditional basis.
Tune in next time for my explanation of natural toilettries.
FOODS
For one, I am avoiding beef like the plague these days. Since last July, I can count on one hand the number of times that I've eaten beef (neither time was ground beef) When I was in SF over the summer, I was informed of some horror stories about mad cow and I'd rather not take my chances. My children will not either, no hamburgers. Unless of course it is organic, free grazing grass fed cattle. I am beef free.
Another one is white flower and white sugar. No grain or sugar occurs that white naturally. I know that when those two go through the processing plant, bleach is added. This is easily remedied becuase you can get ahold of natural cane sugar or sugar in the raw and wheat flour at all grocery stores now. No matter how awesome bleach is, I will avoid.
When it comes to organic food, I have mixed feelings. It comes down to taste and pesticides. Do you want to eat pesticides on all your vegitables and have you ever had an all organic salad? It just plain tastes better. I guess it's personal taste too, but man, carrots are more carroty and apples just burst. I'd take soy and flaxseed chips over Lays any damn day. Some of my favorite things (even if they're not organic) are only found in natural foodstores such as Kettle Chips, Blue Sky Sodas, Reed's Ginger Ale, Panda Licorice, Good Earth Tea, and Kasha. Man, you must have a deep pocket if you're going to eat primarily organic. Expensive: yes. Worth it: I can't say for sure, it's on a conditional basis.
Tune in next time for my explanation of natural toilettries.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Tristan & IsoldeI know when this movie is first observed it screams chic flick, but looks are deceiving. The battle scenes are pretty impressive and action packed, would not expect anything less from Reynolds (Though I kind of wish I could see a version of this movie tht the Scott brothers whip together.) There are a few stunts that caught my attention, such as when the actors jump to kill a man on the ground the camera is at a perfect position to make you gasp. Supherb cinamatography, you'll know what I'm talking about when you see the movie.
I like this movie for the same reasons I enjoy Romeo and Juliet: there's no fairytale ending. It's real and you can feel the power of it. So real that you can understand that this can and probaly did actually happen. If you aren't crying by the end, you will still feel the grief hours after the theatre. Seriously, this movie made me feel actual grief! Just like Romeo and Juliet did when I watched it for the first time. Actual tugs at my heartstrings, this one. Personaly, I think the actors did awesome and were perfectly cast. Especially Tristan (James Franco) and Lord Marke (Rufus Sewell) , pretty damn convincing. Although I think Reynolds was more preocupied with the battle scenes than the scenes of desire and that's where it was a little disapointing. It had a little more potential, but overall I still think it was great.
"There's something beautiful about a well-made tragic love story. It may not be as uplifting as one with a happy ending, but it's more cathartic. Tears, they say, are good for the soul, and few will leave Tristan & Isolde with dry eyes. It is an affecting motion picture with enough romance to satisfy those who appreciate that genre, and enough swordplay and battle scenes to keep lovers of derring-do from becoming restless."
"The ad's designers pull in close on the pretty faces of Franco and Myles hoping that generic contemporary hotness will sell tickets."
OK, I'm done. A-
I like this movie for the same reasons I enjoy Romeo and Juliet: there's no fairytale ending. It's real and you can feel the power of it. So real that you can understand that this can and probaly did actually happen. If you aren't crying by the end, you will still feel the grief hours after the theatre. Seriously, this movie made me feel actual grief! Just like Romeo and Juliet did when I watched it for the first time. Actual tugs at my heartstrings, this one. Personaly, I think the actors did awesome and were perfectly cast. Especially Tristan (James Franco) and Lord Marke (Rufus Sewell) , pretty damn convincing. Although I think Reynolds was more preocupied with the battle scenes than the scenes of desire and that's where it was a little disapointing. It had a little more potential, but overall I still think it was great.
"There's something beautiful about a well-made tragic love story. It may not be as uplifting as one with a happy ending, but it's more cathartic. Tears, they say, are good for the soul, and few will leave Tristan & Isolde with dry eyes. It is an affecting motion picture with enough romance to satisfy those who appreciate that genre, and enough swordplay and battle scenes to keep lovers of derring-do from becoming restless."
"The ad's designers pull in close on the pretty faces of Franco and Myles hoping that generic contemporary hotness will sell tickets."
OK, I'm done. A-
Friday, January 13, 2006
Friday the thirteenth
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Elliot Smith
either/or
I feel I discovered Elliot Smith for myself way too late. I wish I would've been more into his music when he was alive. I thouroughly enjoy it now, but in high school I would have loved it. It's sad when a thing like this happens. I was sitting in my dorm room casually watching Good Will Hunting and I heard the song "Between the Bars' and was hooked. I bought the album a day afterward, the first purchase of the semester. I can't believe I only discovered him this year! This album is awesome, awesome, awesome. Other favs of mine even have major referrences to him, how did I not catch these years ago? His life was pretty cool as well. He graduated from college with a degree in philosophy and politicol science, two subjects that fascinate me to no end but I'm too scared to dedicate myslef to them. Ben Folds' Late and Weezer's The Other Way are both about him. Can't live without this CD.
"I can be another fool or an exception to the rule. You decide the morning after."
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
My Viewers Choice:
FIREFLY
This show was really, REALLY awesome and again it's one I discovered a little too late. Josh mentioned it a few times, but it was Jerry who forced me to watch a couple of episodes. I was hooked. Brandon had to let me borrow his DVD's, though I discovered recently SciFi picked it up. They had a marathon the day I had my wisdom teeth taken out so I was delightfully suprised! Of course it's one of those shows that Fox cut way too early and that disappoints me greatly. No worries, Universal made a movie out of it so that good news for us bad news for Fox. Just think what wouldn've happened if Fox cut Star Wars, hmm? The character development was so good that you had to love every one of them and the writing was that fast, dry humor that forced you to laugh out loud long after the scene was over. Brilliant, I say.
GREY'S ANATOMY
This show is pretty new, first season being January 2005. I adore it. It's Chicago Hope meets ER meets Friends. Sandra Oh gives a stunning performance as the thick skinned, tough, emotionless yet brilliantly talented intern. I love her character, it's no wonder she's up for a Golden Globe. I identifly most with the innocent-finding-herself, Izzy, who is ironicaly named Elizabeth. This is my new Sex and the City.
SUPERNATURAL
This is also a new show consisting of Angel meets Buffy the Vampire. Two brothers traveling the country solving supernatural mysteries that usually involve a pretty girl. I most enjoy watching this show with my friends Travis and Kim in my dorm room with surround sound doing linear algebra during the commercial breaks. Some of the episodes can be quite creepy, one actually had Kim and I jumping into eachothers arms and screaming. Yep, like two 12 year-olds. Travis wasn't with us to share this incredible event, too bad for him. Good show.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
The List for 2006
1. SXSW for the 3rd time
2. write a letter to our Congressman or Representative
3. buy a really cool pair of shoes
4. watch every episode of Grey's Anatomy
5. give 10% of all earnings away to church or charity
6. file taxes by end of January
7. complete FAFSA by end of January
8. take vitamins and algae everyday
9. floss
10. repair bike and save gas
11. clean my car inside and out
12. lose 15 pounds by May
13. drink 3 gallons of water a week
14. spend only $10 on extra food every week (while in school)
15. only watch matinees, but watch at least 3 a month
16. read and complete a book a month
17. learn to play the piano well
18. write 2 letters a month to my Nonnie
19. buy antique jewelery
20. play a lot of animal crossing
21. get first in mario kart worldwide match
22. eat 0 deep fried foods
23. drink strawberry milk and eat a diego's burrito
24. complete all essays for Ellery's class on time
25. get a 4.0 this semester
26. play tennis again
27. say "I love you" to Josh everyday
28. keep up with friends' birthdays
29. catch a bouquet at a wedding
30. don't lie or stretch the truth
31. go to church, but think for myself
32. take a roadtrip to see Pablo
33. explore Christoval
34. skinny dip somewhere in San Angelo
35. keep practicing my flute
36. practice my ballet
37. don't over-involve myself
38. make some great coffee
39. don't get drunk, just razzed
40. don't talk with mouth full
41. eat at the Cactus Cafe' with someone cool
42. have a "photo-date" with someone
43. be nice to spoiled rotten sister
44. make up kick ass flag routines for Grape Creek HS
45. get a manicure and pedicure
46. get 7 hours of sleep every night
47. bake cakes and cookies for friends
48. stop disappearing from friends
49. buy a new Victoria's Secret bra
50. go to an art show
51. go to the symphony
52. live with Josh for the summer
53. be grateful to my dad
54. thank God for life every day
55. plant some trees, kill some misquites
56. go caroling at a nursing home
57. learn how to juggle
2. write a letter to our Congressman or Representative
3. buy a really cool pair of shoes
4. watch every episode of Grey's Anatomy
5. give 10% of all earnings away to church or charity
6. file taxes by end of January
7. complete FAFSA by end of January
8. take vitamins and algae everyday
9. floss
10. repair bike and save gas
11. clean my car inside and out
12. lose 15 pounds by May
13. drink 3 gallons of water a week
14. spend only $10 on extra food every week (while in school)
15. only watch matinees, but watch at least 3 a month
16. read and complete a book a month
17. learn to play the piano well
18. write 2 letters a month to my Nonnie
19. buy antique jewelery
20. play a lot of animal crossing
21. get first in mario kart worldwide match
22. eat 0 deep fried foods
23. drink strawberry milk and eat a diego's burrito
24. complete all essays for Ellery's class on time
25. get a 4.0 this semester
26. play tennis again
27. say "I love you" to Josh everyday
28. keep up with friends' birthdays
29. catch a bouquet at a wedding
30. don't lie or stretch the truth
31. go to church, but think for myself
32. take a roadtrip to see Pablo
33. explore Christoval
34. skinny dip somewhere in San Angelo
35. keep practicing my flute
36. practice my ballet
37. don't over-involve myself
38. make some great coffee
39. don't get drunk, just razzed
40. don't talk with mouth full
41. eat at the Cactus Cafe' with someone cool
42. have a "photo-date" with someone
43. be nice to spoiled rotten sister
44. make up kick ass flag routines for Grape Creek HS
45. get a manicure and pedicure
46. get 7 hours of sleep every night
47. bake cakes and cookies for friends
48. stop disappearing from friends
49. buy a new Victoria's Secret bra
50. go to an art show
51. go to the symphony
52. live with Josh for the summer
53. be grateful to my dad
54. thank God for life every day
55. plant some trees, kill some misquites
56. go caroling at a nursing home
57. learn how to juggle
58. never sleep past 11 on weekends
59. get better at frisbee
60. drink coffee with Thinh at IHOP
61. eat the healthy breakfast thing at IHOP with Ashlin
62. email Darby
63. attend The Way at Glenn Junior High
64. be in my best friends' wedding
65. be happy for said friend getting married
66. pop someones Amelie cherry
67. be an encouragement to the girls on my floor
68. visit sister in San Antonio
69. don't have sex
70. look like Jackie O
71. discover and love a new band all on my own
72. stand up strait
73. dance with Juston
74. be supportive of Amber
75. play with animals in an animal shelter
76. be supportive of Matty
77. buy a cool new poster
78. don't eat out very much (or at least don't PAY for it)
59. get better at frisbee
60. drink coffee with Thinh at IHOP
61. eat the healthy breakfast thing at IHOP with Ashlin
62. email Darby
63. attend The Way at Glenn Junior High
64. be in my best friends' wedding
65. be happy for said friend getting married
66. pop someones Amelie cherry
67. be an encouragement to the girls on my floor
68. visit sister in San Antonio
69. don't have sex
70. look like Jackie O
71. discover and love a new band all on my own
72. stand up strait
73. dance with Juston
74. be supportive of Amber
75. play with animals in an animal shelter
76. be supportive of Matty
77. buy a cool new poster
78. don't eat out very much (or at least don't PAY for it)
79. take a roadtrip with Ashlin
80. be more positive about school
81. figure out what job i can see myself doing the rest of my life
82. be there for someone
83. visit my 1/2 canadian nephew
84. watch all of the olympics i can
85. keep dorm room clean
86. go camping somewhere
87. have a lost in translation, life aquatic, broken flowers marathon
88. have a sofia coppola marathon
89. dig deeper into my italian heritage
90. read a graphic novel
91. eat my fruits and veggies
92. meet and elope Zach Braff (crossing fingers!)
93. go to the library, it's there for a reason
94. order something besides a cinnamon latte at starbucks
95. go to Austin more often
82. be there for someone
83. visit my 1/2 canadian nephew
84. watch all of the olympics i can
85. keep dorm room clean
86. go camping somewhere
87. have a lost in translation, life aquatic, broken flowers marathon
88. have a sofia coppola marathon
89. dig deeper into my italian heritage
90. read a graphic novel
91. eat my fruits and veggies
92. meet and elope Zach Braff (crossing fingers!)
93. go to the library, it's there for a reason
94. order something besides a cinnamon latte at starbucks
95. go to Austin more often
96. find the confidence i had before may 2003
97. make my car last another year
98. don't be so self concious
99. remember my dreams
100. keep dreaming
97. make my car last another year
98. don't be so self concious
99. remember my dreams
100. keep dreaming
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