Home is... where?

I've been in West Lafayette, Indiana for three weeks with Josh. Today I go home, though San Angelo doesn't really feel like home. This is probably supported by the fact that I don't really have a house there. Since I moved into the dorms, I no longer had a permanent address according to my mother. All my things are scattered around San Angelo in boxes at various friend's houses and I won't get it all together until I move back in the dorms for the 06-07 school year. It's really strange to go back to my old room and see my mother's and sister's things all over the place. It doesn't help things when my mother and sister continuously correct me when I accidentaly say "my" room. My mistake, I'm just sleeping there living out of a suitcase until I move back into the dorms. I guess you can understand why I'm going to be traveling away from there for most of the summer. I'm an RA, my job is to make a home away from home for my residents though ironically the dorms are my home.

If home is where the heart is, then where ever Josh may be is where I am home. Living with Josh is easy. Being with someone you love for most of the hours of the day is wonderful, and being with someone who can keep you entertained is even better.

Since I am a daddy's girl, being with my Dad is going to be pretty great too. Growing up very close to your father until you are 10, then not seeing the guy for years hurts pretty bad. Seeing him now that I'm older makes me long for those missing years, but I also know it was for the beat and mainly no one's fault but his. Nevertheless, I feel I am at home with my father so being in CA for a month can only do me good.

I'll make myself a home someday with the help of another and I'll be happy (not that I'm not right now, I just feel displaced). For now, home is with the people I care about and in D100's where I will not only make it a home away from home for the residents, but a home for myself.