then we breakdown

I think as a rule people kind of panic when they graduate. It's this huge step that many have taken to brighten their future and further their lives, but it all hits you in the face once you've got that diploma in your hand.

I was talking to an old high school friend over drinks earler this summer and when the subject of current school came up she promtly asked me, "Have you had your breakdown yet?" I looked at her increadulously and said "Yeah! You too!?" Of course Carrie had, as well as so many others I know. Carrie surprised me though. She was the one who had it together, top of our class and faithful servant of God and there she goes and loses grip after college graduation as well. After speaking with Carrie, I discussed the matter with Adam, his wife Catherine, Philip, and Matt. The only one who didn't seem to have a crazy problem with graduating was Matt, who was getting married in 2 days. Everyone else had their little breakdown and are either over it or are just walking through life blindly like me. I felt a little better about it now after realizing I wasn't weird and unstable because the future scared other people too.

Now halfway finished with graduate school* I still don't have a grip on exaclty what I am intersted in doing with my life. I have two general goals, 1) making a positive influence and 2) traveling as soon as possible, as much as possible. I admire people who do have a grip on their lives. I wish I had that kind of plan. However, if there's anything I've learned in the past year is plans don't pan out like you hope sometimes. So, here I go blindly...