FINE! SHUT UP! I'm posting now!!!

You know, I'd love to have a lucid dream. One of those where you know you're dreaming and you can do anything you want. That would be the coolest thing in the world. But then I think of Vanilla Sky and how that turned out and I second guess it. I watched Waking Life tonight with Josh, Daniel, Nathan, and Thinh. GREAT MOVIE! It's one of those you need to watch over and over to understand a lot of it, though you'll never understand ALL of it. Nathan decided to sleep through most of it until he'd snore then Thinh would just punch him out of it. I just sat with Josh on the couch, as happy as could be. We seem to be holding eachother a little tighter lately. We both know what's coming and can't bare to think about it. I've got this awful stomache ache that's growing increasingly more painful day by day. Everytime I think about how great of a boyfriend he is, I instantly am reminded that after Wedneday I won't see him for exactly 103 days. Believe me, I'll be counting down every one! What's going to kill me the most is the activilty that I'll be spending the most time in this year is Band and mini-Josh is in Band and everytime I see him I'll be reminded. I guess I'll just make the most of it while it lasts, and so far we have been doing a great job of that. There's just one thing I hope he does before he leaves, though. I better get to bed, church in the morning!

"Run motha f**kers!"